And nights spent wandering
Emptying cups of coffee
To throttle sleep
And staring at the wall
The days I had
Just coerced my lungs
And the red pump
Assembled me.
I wasn't lost ,
I just yearned to be
But it never came.
And my senses smothered me
Each day , each night.
The summer eloped
And clouds like vast swathe
Maybe the earth twirled
And there rained sod
I choked and water never poured
And such days stay
For a long while
Atleast in my blooming mind ,
Yet healing doesn't come.
As if gloom had a face
And he's kissing me mercilessly
Sucking my hard earned sangfroid
And oozing the gruelling misery.
Those days when
I didn't seek comfort
I seeked reasons
An elixir
To run away from this goosechase.
Ah , those heavy days
I lie
When I tell you
I don't remember them.
I do ,
Maybe I always will,
I just can't tell you,
How it feels,
Unapologetically ,
me
